Hello how are you doing today?
I am on top of the world. Because I finally found the time and courage to start this blog that had been my intention for a long time and I am very happy about this.
Let me introduce myself. I am one of those people who love to talk but also to listen what others have to say. I have very pronounced sense of empathy. I am able to experience the emotions of my interlocutor. I learn from my own but also from the mistakes of other people. I rejoice with others joys as they were my own. I cry and suffer because of the suffering of others. I just love people, and that love makes me happy. I always see and embrace the best of everyone even those who are not so great towards me. That’s because my sister gave me the nick name ”Alice in the wonderland”.
But I was not always this way. It was the times when I used to hate some people and the worst that I did is that I used to hate myself. Especially in the younger age from the primary school, through the high school, then university, during my first love experiences and and so on. I used to have so many frustrations and complexes.
The first step to happiness is to free up from the any complex that tortures us and does not allow us to enjoy this life. But it is not easy especially when you live in the environment that does not support your needs as human being and when even your own mother is comparing you with the other successful kids constantly making you feel guilty for who you are. By the way my mom still does, and a lot of other people, but it does not impact me any more as it did back then when I was just an innocent child.
Then you start to feel that you failed, that you are rejected by someone you love, you may think you are not smart enough, not attractive enough, not talented enough, not successful enough and all this feelings just does not allow you to be happy and fulfilled. And this feeling is constantly behind you and chase you as an invisible dragon throwing the fire and ashes in to your soul.
Then you start to blame others for the way they make you feel, you blame your traumatic childhood experiences, you believe it is beyond of your control, you believe that you are not worthy. But this is all bullshit. You have to understand that anybody or anything can not make you feel anything. That you are the one and only who have power and control of your own actions and emotions. That your life is not and can not be determined through some unpleasant situations and unpleasant people, but nobody teach you about this things in school. This is something you have to discover yourself on your own life journey as I did.
I see the life as a river flow that passes through a variety of landscapes. Sometimes the river of life passes through the mountains and canyons. It runs at great speed through the stubble stones and rocks. But there were various tributaries in its way that made her stronger and bigger. Those tributaries are the friends on our river. The river flows along her path through fertile prairies. She becomes large and calm and continues to welcome new tributaries so she becomes more wider and even deeper and fuller. Then the river begins to spread her channels through the plain and selflessly start watering the crops with her own water. Spread the life and happiness through the plain that embrace her. Sometimes the earth swallows up our river and takes her to her deep darkness. But most of the rivers manage to break through those dark corridors and return to the surface to enjoy the warmth of the sun, to feel the wind blowing, enjoy the birds songs, hug with the rains and cold snow…
New tributaries approach her on this new path. They brings her new joys, fears and disappointments. Our river is getting stronger and more self confident. She odds against sharp rock strokes. It sometimes happens that the river does not like the landscape through which she passes so she tries with all the forces to change her flow. Some rivers succeed, some unfortunately do not. Sometimes the river falls from a high altitude, she is screaming, she is scared, yet she overcomes her fear of falling and she continues to sail through the new green plain until she reaches her sea or ocean.
This is the moment when our river feels the peak of happiness. She feels perfect and unique and able to become one with other salty and sweet waters. This is the moment when she embraces and becomes embraced with all the waters of this world and she starts dancing in the rhythm that is determined by the sun, wind, the moon and the whole universe.
That is the reason that the journey of a river reminds me of life. Life brings us joy but also difficulties. New tributaries symbolize new friends and new experiences. Some of them are warm and gentle, some will freeze our blood vessels with their hatred. Some will bring us fear, some others the strength, love and power.
But we still continue sailing, we are all striving for peace and perfection in our lives.
Through this blog I’ll share with you some of my own pleasant and unpleasant experiences that made me of who I am today, some lessons that I learned in life in very painful way, a lot of true and inspiring stories that I heard from some incredible people that I was lucky enough to meet on my life journey. I will also share with you my experiences and tips from various trips and places worth visiting which had impressed me deeply. I would also recommend to all of you to start to recording and sharing your experiences with the world.
When you start share your own happiness with others, your happiness will start to grow. Because the nature of joy is to share with others. Writing is a way of expression among many other ways, it will help you to get rid of accumulated emotions.
Writing helped me to overcome my fears and to achieve my ambition to become self confident and strong. It helped me to meet and understand the real me and to discover my values in life.
So let this journey begin. I have a lot to say and to share with the world.