When I started this blog my first intention was to concentrate on motivational posts only. I wanted to share with the world the story of my life and how I went through some very difficult situations, such as unhappy marriage, divorce, job loss, lack of the confidence, lack of money, starting again and again from the scratch, about falling in the deep and rising up again. I tried to be inspirational, unfortunately I didn’t had any success in my attempt.
I wanted to help the others that were going through the same difficulties in life as I did, by sharing my own experiences. I wanted to tell everyone that everything is possible if you work hard and you really want to achieve something. I wanted to tell you to never give up. Therefore I named my blog the way I did.
Unfortunately my posts were more informational than personal, probably because l wasn’t confident enough to share my truth at the time. Since my average audience were young people, from 20 to 25 years old this was totally natural. Because when I think about myself at that age, all motivational talks coming from the people 40 and above years old was totally boring to me. I believe that were the reasons nobody didn’t really liked my posts.
At the beginning, my blog did not had any views. But, I decided to continue with writing anyway. I tried to find out why my blog was not successful.
I had quality content, nice photos, great graphic work and layout, I made a Facebook page where I share my posts, I link my blog with my LinkedIn account and my Twitter account I did all I possibly could and knew. Where was the problem then?
It is sad for every author when nobody read their work. The first question I asked myself was, what kind of blogs am I visiting and reading often? What kind of blogs I like and admire as a reader the most? The answer was, traveling blogs of course.
Since I really love to travel, and I do travel a lot I always like to gain some knowledge about the places I am going to visit. Therefore I like to read travel blogs, and not only to gain information, but also to get some ideas on where my next destination is going to be. Sometimes, because of the lack of money I just dream about these beautiful destinations and I virtually travel with the bloggers through their photos.
So, I decided, besides of my motivational posts to start sharing my travel experiences with the world. I made new category that I named Beautiful destinations. And finally, I saw some progress regarding the views and likes. If you wish to check out some of this beautiful destinations that I described you can press the links below the photos in this blog post.
Later on I started some interviews and posts regarding some famous and successful people that I personally admire, and the progress was already enormous.
So my advice to all of you is never give up. Keep trying and working hard on your goals, and success will come sooner or later.
From the time I was a little girl I always loved to write and read. When I was at the elementary school, my teachers were so happy with my writing skills. My essays were often send to writing competitions by my teachers, and I had won most of them. The prizes were mostly big book collections, museums tickets, but sometimes money too. I was so thrilled to grow my personal library, and to collect so many books, and sometimes money, thanks to my passion for writing from such a young age.
I also kept my secret diary as a girl. I continued doing until I got married and I gave birth to my beautiful boy. At the time he was my one and only passion. I concentrated all my love and attention on him, because nothing else could compared with my precious child. It was totally natural to me. I know that the majority of the new moms are doing exactly the same as I did. There are millions of women who forgot all about their passion, dreams, career and personal goals after becoming mothers and who devoted their lives completely to their children. And I am never going to regret I did.
Unfortunately my married life, was not the one I wanted and expected, and instead of turning back to writing to get rid of the accumulated emotions, I became oppressed with compulsive household cleaning. Probably because I was afraid of my husband finding and reading it.
I was really melancholic all the time. I even became suicidal. It took me very long time to cope with the psychological and emotional issues and to overcome them. And even now after so many years, I’m still not completely sure that I overcame all of my fears and problems.
Depression is like a sleepy dragon in the cage. Once you have it you can never get rid of it totally. There is always a constant fear that the dragon will wake up again, escape the cage and take you back to the darkness.
I won’t write about my marriage in this post, maybe in some of my next posts if I manage to find the strength to face it once again.
Anyhow, I divorced, after 19 years of marriage. It was the most difficult time of my life. I had no job, no money I was totally broke and alone. By going through this difficult time I realized who were the real friends to me who were not at all.
I got emotional support from some people I had never expected, and from some others that I was hopping to get support I only got ignorance.
I lived in a small community at the time, where almost everyone knew each other. I was ashamed to visit the psychologist, and to talk openly with anyone about my depression and my suicidal thoughts.
I had so many problems at the time, and I had to find the way out by myself.
I found the salvation in two of my greatest passions from my youth, writing and painting. I felt that I had to find the real me again, one who I had lost on the way.
It was the best way for me to express myself on my own way, through the writing and painting, without sharing openly my emotions with others. Writing and painting were my self-healing therapy.
I maybe learned to love, accept and embrace myself in a hard way but one is sure, it is always good to put your thoughts and feelings on a piece of paper, or to type them. Then the next step is to read your thoughts loud. Then read it and read it again and again until you are able to read it without crying at all. It is the best exercise in order to reach your self awareness, your self-recognition and acceptance of your situation. It’s the best way to be honest with yourself, to connect with your true feelings and to listen what they are telling you.
Please feel free to comment and share my post. I would really appreciate to know if my post touched you emotionally, because it came right out of my heart. This post will be continued with the next blog post ,,How I lost my son after divorce”….